Within my reach.

I never felt as good as when I was eating less, and better. Back in 2008 when I started making all of these changes I was incredibly unhappy where I lived and with the relationship that I was in. I couldn't fix the relationship, so I endeavored to find happiness internally, and independently.

Things changed, I clawed my way out from under the unhealthy, suffocating relationship I was in and eventually found myself in one that healthy, understanding, and best of all mutually loving. I backslid a bit in the way of diet and exercise, and I'm somewhat disappointed in myself for that... but it is nothing that cannot once again be undone.

More than anyone, my partner deserves me at my very best, my very healthiest--mentally and physically. My diet should leave me feeling clean and energized, and for the better part of a year it simply hasn't. The good news is that I have the power and control to make the changes I need made. Simply knowing that I will be able to find such divine happiness at home and also within provides me with all the strength and determination I could ever need, it's more than I could have hoped for.

On Sunday Manuel and I are renting a small uhaul to take our possessions from out separate residences and deposit them into a single home that we will soon be sharing with my baby brother. I cannot wait to stock my pantry with all the many keys to my health, and to share those things with mi familia. I have a renewed sense of self, and I don't mean to let it escape me again.